July 10, 2026 - Gratitude and Grace… and “The Space” In-between
Sometimes life gives you exactly what you’ve been hoping for… and then asks you to wait just a tad bit longer.
I’ll be honest… I’ve never really been very good at waiting, just ask my husband! But the last year or so has definitely helped me improve my level of patience and how I react to things outside of my control.
I’m a planner… and a doer! When my heart is all in something… I want to just jump straight in with both feet. I want to organize, create, serve, build relationships, problem-solve, and pour everything I have into the people around me. It really can be both a good and bad problem!
I seriously don’t do “halfway” very well… and lately it seems I keep finding myself living in a beautiful and unfinished schedule of sorts… a real halfway point of life. My days seem to be filled with excitement, happiness… and just enough uncertainty to keep reminding me that not everything happens on my timeline. Just be patient, Angel… I tell myself repeatedly!
A year of surgeries, setbacks, learning to literally walk again, accepting disappointment, and wondering what the next month, next week and even next day of my life would look like… there were definitely days I questioned if I would ever feel like myself again… not just physically… but purposefully! Does that make sense? When I started journaling a couple of years ago, I never realized how therapeutic and healing just a simple task could be!
Today, I feel like I’m standing on the edge of a chapter I’ve been thinking about and wishing was over for so long, like really… forever… BUT, I finally feel that purpose returning. It feels like sunshine on my face again… you know the feeling I’m talking about! You know it’s coming… you just have to wait for it… and when it hits, it feels absolutely amazing! This exact space can feel soooo good, yet not quite 100% of where we want to be… just waiting for that full feel of the sun to beat down on your face. Testing our patience, It can make us want to just fast forward ahead, instead of trusting the process, trusting the timing. But… I know and have definitely learned that some of life’s sweetest and most rewarding moments aren’t found in the destination, but the journey along the way…
So today, I’m choosing to really focus on the good stuff… gratitude for second chances… gratitude for healing… and gratitude for the people I get to do life with! I have the best people I get to talk to, to see daily!
The last year has been one huge and incredible lesson… and the waiting has never been empty. Every day was preparing me. With consistent reflection, prayer, journaling, therapy and patience, my heart has truly learned how to wait with grace. I haven’t always liked it… but I am thankful for all the days… even the bad ones.
This morning I have decided this weekend is for breathing… not waiting, not building… but truly breathing!
I’m ready to just celebrate how far I’ve come. Instead of focusing on how much farther I need to go, how much work is still ahead… or how much waiting may still be needed… I am choosing to celebrate. This weekend will be all about living it up, celebrating life’s blessings in every way, making memories with some of my favorite people, laughing a heck of a lot louder, no worries… and just soaking up the beautiful life I have… in this exact moment!
The next chapter will come soon enough.
But for now… Bring on the weekend… I have a Spiritual Roadtrip ahead! ❤️
