April 16, 2026 - Faith
Well… this morning I’m journaling on my way to my first official surgery since my hip replacement… the day that, in many ways, felt like the start of a crazy string of bad luck.
These past nine months have been quite the journey. Not one I was prepared for or ever would’ve signed up for. But through every single day… 100% of them… faith has carried me. And today will be no different.
Earlier this week, I had nerve testing done on my leg to try to figure out what in the world is still going on. My fractures have healed, and my ligaments are on their way (minus the ACL… she’s gone for good). Unfortunately, the test confirmed what we were hoping it wouldn’t… there’s significant nerve damage in two places. The nerves aren’t firing the way they should, and my muscles aren’t responding properly, which explains the lingering pain and swelling. We’ll tackle that next… another day.
Today, the focus is my shoulder. The hope is that the surgeon can repair it with minimally invasive surgery and move me one step further down this road of healing.
Through all of this, I’ve been lifted up by so many prayers and surrounded by the best friends and family I could ask for. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little anxious… some of that is just normal. And yes, I’m slightly unsure about becoming a “one-handed bandit” (as my husband so lovingly called my future this morning). But worried? No.
Faith isn’t something I’ve always had, but it’s something that has grown in me through all of this… right alongside my own personal growth. I trust that no matter what happens, no matter what obstacles come, I’m going to be okay. God has a way of providing, steadying my mind, and somehow even giving me moments to laugh in the middle of it all.
And just to top it off, I heard on the radio that it’s National Wear Your Pajamas to Work Day… which feels fitting, because here I am, heading in wearing mine. When I pointed that out, Louis kindly reminded me that I don’t actually have a place of employment right now.
So for now, this is my job… healing, resting, and finding my way back to myself.
